All it takes is for you to see that one Disney movie that makes your young naive imigination run wild. Then your five years old and have your complete wedding with prince charming planned. You use your baribies and the oh-so-handsome Ken to act it out. Your a few years older and baribies are a thing of the past, the game MASH is where it's at. You and your friends argue who gets to write down who and discuss who's going to be yourbridesmaid. Mash slowly evolves into those little paper fortune tellers that you write down different variations, all good, of what you want your 'life' to be like. No matter what your getting the "and they lived happily ever after..." It all seemed so easy, you could munipulate the outcomes of those games. Skip a few here and mark out the boy you don't like in MASH or just change your direction so you have 2 kids instead of 12.
When you reach junior high you have your first boyfriend. He finally got the guts to ask you out at lunch, and of course you say yes. A week passes, and you break up. A few tears fall just because you've never felt this feeling before. But nothing compares to when you have your first real boyfriend. The one that you see other times besides lunch and the junior high football games, the one that you really truly like... a lot. Your parents let you go places with just him, it's all new to you. You guys might even last awhile. But then he starts acting different and before you know it you hear the 'we need to talk'. That only leads to breaking up, and that's exactly what happens. You are heartbroken. But ehat seemed impossible, you soon overcome. You get over him with time, even though you may reminisce.
Now we reach present day. You think you have it all figured out, but when actually analyzing what love is you find yourself dumbfounded. It's much bigger than you. You thought you've experienced it before but in my opinion you can love people you meet in life but you don't fall 'in' love with them. For me, I love who I am with certain people and I love their because of their personality, or even the feeling I get when I'm around them but I'm not in love with them. Believe me, this is a new found clarity. I'm still a little unsure of it all. And I don't expect myself to understand it all now, or even think that I should. I've had my share of heartbreak, and all the shades it comes in. Who knows, maybe one day i won't repeat my mistakes. One thing I won't do is throw the words I love you around like they're meaningless.
I constantly try to drill the old saying "If it's meant to be, it will happen" in my head so I can just relax and not worry. One day I'll find the person I'm supposed to be with and everything that puzzles me now will all make sense. Could that day get here a little quicker, please?
Music keeps me holding on, listen to Try by Asher Book from the new movie Fame. And see the movie too :)
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When you reach junior high you have your first boyfriend. He finally got the guts to ask you out at lunch, and of course you say yes. A week passes, and you break up. A few tears fall just because you've never felt this feeling before. But nothing compares to when you have your first real boyfriend. The one that you see other times besides lunch and the junior high football games, the one that you really truly like... a lot. Your parents let you go places with just him, it's all new to you. You guys might even last awhile. But then he starts acting different and before you know it you hear the 'we need to talk'. That only leads to breaking up, and that's exactly what happens. You are heartbroken. But ehat seemed impossible, you soon overcome. You get over him with time, even though you may reminisce.
Now we reach present day. You think you have it all figured out, but when actually analyzing what love is you find yourself dumbfounded. It's much bigger than you. You thought you've experienced it before but in my opinion you can love people you meet in life but you don't fall 'in' love with them. For me, I love who I am with certain people and I love their because of their personality, or even the feeling I get when I'm around them but I'm not in love with them. Believe me, this is a new found clarity. I'm still a little unsure of it all. And I don't expect myself to understand it all now, or even think that I should. I've had my share of heartbreak, and all the shades it comes in. Who knows, maybe one day i won't repeat my mistakes. One thing I won't do is throw the words I love you around like they're meaningless.
I constantly try to drill the old saying "If it's meant to be, it will happen" in my head so I can just relax and not worry. One day I'll find the person I'm supposed to be with and everything that puzzles me now will all make sense. Could that day get here a little quicker, please?
Music keeps me holding on, listen to Try by Asher Book from the new movie Fame. And see the movie too :)
